I learned this week, thanks to being up in the middle of the night and myspace and facebook that a couple (not that there are many) of my exes have recently gotten married. I think this is great, let me just say that upfront. I don't wish to be back with either of them and never have, honest. Tim never reads my blog so for those thinking I'm just covering my ass I don't need to. Consider yourself mooned. Anyway, I'm happy for them and yet there's a strangeness to it. I think it's simply the fact that now years (we're talking 11 years in one case, high school) later I'm seeing these images of the biggest day of someone's life and this someone is a guy that I used to kiss in the hall of my high school and hope to get notes from and haven't talked to since graduation. weird.
Anyway, this spring would be our ten year high school reunion. Our school, for some unknown reason doesn't do alumni relations. Though they should since they are semi-private. So we have to organize our own reunion if we want one and I just don't think that's going to happen. I don't know that I would go or not and I don't have to decide so it's not a big deal but there's a weird head trip that happens when you see wedding pics of your highschool boyfriend, or learn that you're childhood friend who walked home with you everday just had her second baby, that one friend is writing screenplays in LA, etc. It's hard to pull these faces out of these old memories and fit them into what you know to be actual now.
Again, I'm really happy for these people, as I'm happy that my life is what it is now. As much as I had some great memories in high school and was blessed with incredible friends I have no desire to relive it. I thoroughly believe that the best times are now and in the future and I refuse to let my kids limit themselves to thinking that high school is as good as it gets. With any luck they'll still think high school at home is awesome but I want them to realize how much more there is to life. I think that's why these wedding pics surprised me so much, not that I never realized we'd all grow up and have famlies and spouses and careers but that at 17 it was a relatively abstract thought and today it's our reality.